Somwhow its Beautiful Beautiful....but i totally don't see how???

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xLRWc5c8SRQ
OK so the last few days have not been to exciting which in fact has been good.  I gave blood on Friday and i remembered they told me to drink a lot of fluids so that I would have good veins, thankfully I did and i asked her to look and see if there were a couple more good ones as i had my MRI coming up 3 days later.  She didn't foresee any problem so you imagine how much fluid I started to really pound back just to make sure i had enough in my veins.  Up until then i was still tearing at me skin and breaking it some parts.  I remember there was one Sunday at church, well there many  Sundays at church, every week has a Sunday at church, OK moving right along, I had 2 people pray for my itching and as soon as they were done after I thanked them both for praying for me I turned to Naomi and said "OK, Naomi can you please scratch, harder, oh much harder than that...OK that's great thanks"  Truth be told I couldve sat there ALL DAY.  This next story is rated R.XXXXXXXX  I am hypersensitive to ,put it mildly, along the inner sides on both my left and right thighs and down from my under arms to my hip bone areas so to be pulled there in any way is agonizingly painful for me.  Well about 3 weeks ago i guess, I must've done something in the night that set the nerve endings into chaos because when i woke up i could (enter into descriptive mode) feel as it felt like someone had literally taken a machete and sliced right through my inner right thigh. and left a gaping bruised wound.  i cannot begin to explain my pain,  if felt as if the itch that was already torturous(sp) had just been taken to a whole new level. after that, which i still feel i have knocked my knuckle ever so gently into my left hip which has sent me down  to the ground in tears.  and yet today here I am groaning to God, asking him to make it stop.  But I just think in someway he's using this because to not think that only means that all this pain is for nothing and thats just something i do not believe and feel sadness for those that do.  So here's my song,  I hope it works...theres been an error on page icon at the bottom watching me the entire me time, kinda creepy actually.
I'm going to also try to post a couple pics. Alex and I together, and what Alex made me for my birthday. Wood that she went digging for, sanded down,drilled the holes on the 3 upright and put tealight candles in (i love tealights) and the long piece,I'm told, she was on a mission to find that one.  Choco put the circles in that one as it was a thin piece and didnt want it flying and possibly hurting Alex but she did all the staining.  best gift ever.  So again Im going to try to update but I'll so try to save this and we'll see what happens.  thank you all for your continued prayers.
Results for MRI on Wednesday.
expecting to be told that i'm still off chemo yayayayay