Life is good

I’ve given in. (Kind of contradicts the title doesn't it?)

That’s it; I am officially in need of help.  I’ve dropped the whole pride thing and I have reached out to people to help me out as I am so tired.  I have never done this before and find it necessary yet still difficult.  I don’t know why it’s so hard to ask your friends for help.  I guess it leaves you feeling vulnerable and I’m not going to lie, it makes me feel kind of weak.  It’s like I can’t take care of myself.

You know this cancer walk teaches you many things about yourself and others for that matter.  Let’s start with humility (I don’t think I need to remind you all of my ‘low rise jeans’ incident with the ambulance driver) LOL. 

I feel like today I am grateful and content.  I can’t explain it other than some days I feel really blessed to be me. Does that sound arrogant?  I totally don’t mean it to be.  You know that some days you’re just weirdly happy.  For no apparent reason, well obviously God blesses our lives with days like this I figure so we can better handle the bad days.  I just re-read this...as if I know why God does what he does...now thats arrogant Melanie. (I like to think you all know that I dont actually think I know why God does what he does, mind you if I did...)

I’m happy, I have cancer and I am happy. No seriously, I’m not being sarcastic, I know that’s very odd for me but I am being serious.

My friend died one year ago today.  She was a wonderful woman of strong character and a deep love for God.  I miss her kicking my butt and calling me on my crap.  The jobs up for grabs if anyone wants it.  Keep in mind that I am not easy to handle, not always this sweetJ

Anyways, I’m tired, but I should tell you all that I get the results for my MRI on Monday and I have no concerns what so ever.  This is the first MRI that I am going into where I feel no worries or anxiety.

On Saturday Alex and I are doing our spa day.  I am looking forward to having some time together; it’s been a while since we’ve done something ‘girly’ together.

Bless you all.

Please continue to pray for my friend that I mentioned in my last blog.  I played her the song today and she loved it and said it resonated with her spirit so that’s awesome.

Here’s my encouraging and very happy song. (This song makes me want to dance on my tip toes but I don’t know why)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8LQH6UDi15s