So much pain

So I am doing fine well, the seizure meds are not changing, my oncologist was quite positive that changing them will not help the liver and it was the chemo that is still in me that has and is continuing to do the damage so once again it's just time. I'm eating way better than I was before and my weight is awesome I'm at about 112 lbs. Which is a major jump:):) I weighed myself at the Dr.'s the other day. I was so happy I almost did the little leprachaun (sp) jump but thought I might look odd. But wait that never stopped me before...anyway I didn't. I'm doing a trial boxing class next Thursday May 1st the day after Alex turns 20, 20 that's like HUGE!!!! I can't believe I have a daughter who's 20. Unbelievable. Where did all the years go? Ok, back to the boxing, so for a long time now I've whined and complained about needing to exercise but not finding anything I really like to do, I need a contact sport and when I did kickboxing it was great but then Elite closed that option closed as well so it's been 4 years and nothing. I tried swimming, made a half-donkey attempt at walking, ok well I thought about it but I am a contact sport person, I can't just swim in a pool or just walk or run there's absolutely nothing wrong with it at all. I just need to relieve my stress in a different way that's all. Like in a punching different kind of way. Noone (specialists) has a problem with it, no sparring but I'm not an idiot, actually, that was the best part of kickboxing but I know that's out of the question so it's just target and bag training and body conditioning. Spirit, body and mind. I'm feeling very positive about this direction that I am on, I don't feel like I'm off the path God has me on which is good because that is so easy to do. So overall things are going pretty good. Retreat is only a week away which means school registration is also just over a week away and my trial boxing class is less than a week away. And save the best til last my daughter's birthday is only days away. Mixed emotions there. “Pain and suffering have come into your life, but remember pain, sorrow, suffering are but the kiss of Jesus - a sign that you have come so close to Him that He can kiss you.” (Mother Teresa) I'm ending my blog with this today because I have friends that are grieving with great pain right now and of course for those of you that I don't know but find yourselves in the same position. I'm not quite sure how I linked the song to the title as I've been mucking about with it for a couple days now but somehow the song is linked to the title so just click on it and the song will open up. It works because I've logged out and tried it. Thanks and please pray for my friends, and yours, that are just in a place of hurting right now and encourage them but lets not get all 'preachy' just encourage them. Be like a good waiter, let them know you're there when they need you but don't hover or keep interrupting by suggesting things to try on the menu. BAM how's that for a wicked cool analogy!!!! That even impressed me:):) Thank you fellow waiters and waitresses for letting us know you're there and for not hovering, God bless you all! Me