Old me New me Old me New me Old me New me and so on and so on ....

In my defence my computer has not been behaving, well I think its more my blog has not been behaving because I’m at work and its fine.  Whatever now I’m blogging.  Lots to tell you.  Alex has decided to move back to the north shore and will be crashing on my couch from February 28 – march 31 at which time she plans on having a job that will allow her to rent a room somewhere (I’m hoping on the north shore) but she’s leaving the doors openL

The naturopath was very helpful, he gave me some solid ideas for changing the foods I eat, and I have a couple friends that are helping me do that by making the best soups ever and I’m getting some cooking tips from another friend which has helped all of this is to help the digestive system clean itself out, well I assure you its cleaning, a little to much for my liking.  What else is new? My weight is headed in the right direction, my last weigh in was at 102lbs and yesterday I weighed in at 107.8 so that’s positive, still have a way to go but I’m getting there. 

I had a very depressing couple weeks I guess it was mid January, pissed off a few people, people that mean a lot to me, hurt people that also meant a lot to me. Battled going back to the ‘old me’  which is a very guarded fully protected hard edged, excuse my language, but an absolute bitch, because it keeps me from getting hurt so it has been a battle a real real hard one.  It feels almost as if God and I have wrestled it back and forth with it.  If I close my eyes that’s exactly what I see.  Me and god wrestling.  I think I am too open.  My dear friend Lois, bless her heart was always so open as am I.  What I didn’t realise is that, that can come with a price and I would bet she paid that price many times as have I.  I have always been this way.  As my Toronto dad says, “if you ask a question be prepared for the answer” and I guess I’ve always been the same way.  Well I’m going to thicken my filters and choose what I say to who I say it too more carefully because I am not going thru another couple weeks like those, it was one thing after another and then fighting against the old me was almost impossible and it was too close of a fight.  And I can assure you, I really was not a nice person.  Well many of us weren’t before we knew christ.

So onto my good news, I had an MRI last week and the results yesterday and nothing has changed wwwwwoooooohhhhhhoooooooJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJ

I hope you can see these cause they’re all happy faces.  My liver is still taking a bit of a beating and the enzymes are not bouncing back as quickly as they’d like so I’m going to see ANOTHER specialist, a liver specialist---never had one of them before.

Bless you, sorry for the long delay.  I can only blog now if I come in early or stay late at work so please understand if there’s a delay.

Here’s your song.  This would be my battle in my head song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VhnvckYUFhg

 

And please continue to pray for me and for Alex’s move,

Thanks, Mel