Tuesday, 22 July 2014

We all need a reminder of how God sees all.

HTML The title holds the song so please click on it. It may just be the little blessing you need today in this very moment to encourage you, remind you of how much you mean to God or how great of a person you are. So go ahead and click I promise nothing bad will jump out at you. Seriously, I know normally that'd be my style but not this time:) I had my liver blood work done yesterday and my enzymes have all continued to drop "what does this mean?" you may be asking, well what it means is that the toxicity that has been pretty much taking over my body for the past year is finally on its way out. Still a ways to go yet but these #'s are the lowest they've been since I think before i was blasted with an unwarranted amount of ridiculous chemo. Anyway, I'm here and that's what matters. Still having some 'digestive' issues but i've realised that when i'm under more stress or anxiety than usual my system rebels and kicks up a fuss so I avoid stress as much as I can and I go to my boxing class at Griffins Boxing 3 times a week, awesome club by the way and great programs with very knowledgable trainers.(Griffins plug, not even getting paid to say that) So not really a lot to tell you guys OH I moved, obviously I'm not going to tell you where but i just off of the ground floor so spider visitation is minimal now so I am very happy. I am really enjoying coming home into a nice bright, spider free, safe home. Although a friend from church and I were talking, this already sounds funny to me, I was telling her that my daughter I think it was last year bought me a knife for my birthday because she knows I don't like staying alone so I was telling my friend this and she says to get a baseball bat and keep that under my bed, they won't be expecting that. Now I'm thinking of that Christmas video "They Won't Be Expecting That" see youtube if you haven't seen it. Ok back to my baseball bat story, so when I moved my mum came over and we were admiring all the closet space she said "oh look there was a rod here I guess this was used as a closet for something, but it'll be a good storage area for you. and your cat litter can go in here." So a few days later I'm almost at the bottom of the closet (unpacking boxes)and I notice this fat solid rod so I thought to myself, "sh** this would knock the hell out of someone if they tried to break in here, screw the baseball bat this is way better!" So, here's the chance to have a good laugh at my expense once again, I callled my mum to tell her of my awesome findings and about the conversation with my friend from church who used to be a copy years ago. Turns out that the awesome heavy piece of wood I found was the rod to hang clothes on. I said "I don't care now it's under my bed and it'll be used on any poor sucker that tries to come through my front door. I'll knock him senseless". I have a couple, well three friends that I can think of off the top of my head that are gong some pretty crappy stuff right now, I am of course not at liberty to say nor does it matter God knows who they are and what they need. If you could please pray that God bring them each comfort and shows them love and reveals himself to them, i would really appreciate it. On that note, I had the Jesus talk with someone on Sunday I think it was. People say oh well just tell your story, that's the Jesus story. OH NO IT IS NOT!!!! I fumbled and tripped over words trying to explain who Jesus was and why he did what he did and answer questions, I have never had a more uncomfortable conversation with anyone before in my entire existence it is not an easy fluid conversation to have. I fumbled over words, thankfully my friend knows me enough to know that I am very faithful in my walk with Christ and that I have a hard time expressing a lot of things. Fortunately the seed was planted because the last thing she/he said to me was "I want that." She/he is going through some tough times right now so I felt good that we were able to have a 'stumbling' conversation on that level at all so after my friend left I sat down and said to God, "OK God its all yours now" and then I smiled and thought that I did the best i could for a first timer. The song above is a special song the lyrics are so beautiful but as I was listening to it this week there was a section of the song that really spoke to me for a dear friend of mine who I know reads my blog. And I want to just tell you that I love you and I think you're beautiful and a very dear friend to me. Thanks for all your prayers everyone. Me