I've graduated!!!! (My little happy dance, whatever that would look like besides awkward)

HTML So lets just get right to the heart of the blog because I have studying to do; yup you heard it right no need to check your hearing I said studying. :):):) they finished revising my course and I have started it. Well started reading and taking notes on Chapter 1 yesterday, it took me a day just to read through all the prep stuff and I didn't even do ALL of that yet. So I prayed about it and before I start each day I am really going to make a conscious effort to try to remember to ask God to come into my day and help to remember what I need to remember and to be able to take the notes that He needs me to take and that my recall is sharp and I pray that the Holy Spirit protects my mind and that I am able to understand and make sense of what I am reading and apply to something that makes it relateable (SP). Not sure whose department that will fall under but they're one in the same so I guess they'll figure it out, all I need to do is show up. So I am 15 pages in with notes taken I am trying something new this time, prayerfully I asked God how to structure my study time because although last time I did really well I was absolutely completely 'spent' in the end and I don't want it to be like that again so I figured that I'd pray about it this time and see if God's got any better ideas (smirking at myself) so I am giving myself approx. 5-6 weeks per unit which still leaves me some extra time if I run over, Sunday will remain my Sabbath and I will study in 1/2 hour intervals with 15 minutes between to get up stretch get a drink whatever but get away from the table. The other thing that's been sticking in my brain (besides the cancer)is "don't study where you eat & don't eat where you study." I don't know why but it won't leave my head. When I'm done with my books and accessories they get piled very neatly on the chair and it goes underneath the table. So it's already difficult but with the help of God and my friends prayers and cheering squad all of a sudden this mountain is now a moles hill. I'm trying to think of a humorous analogy but i'm getting nothing sorry! Ok so more cool news. My boxing is going pretty good. I'm 'crickety chemo' pains. Any of you that have been on chemo or have arthritis will know exactly what I'm talking about. The joints are aching mainly in my ankles but the knees are feeling it a bit too. I strained my achilles last week but they recovered nicely but I did something funky to my calf muscle on the right leg because I could barely walk on Monday after class on Sunday so yesterday I took a rest day. I'm no stranger to my limitations. Overall I'm enjoying it I'm even getting used to the humility part, it's not so bad probably good for me. The instructors are really nice I think sometimes a little too nice. Not in that way, come on you guys really (tisk tisk ;) Obviously they needed to know about the tenant in my head for safety reasons and also if I start floundering around on the floor like a fish out of water they'll know why and not just throw water on me. (ok it was an attempt at a decent analogy) But i feel like they're using 'kid gloves' on me and that part is frustrating. I just want to say "it's ok it's not like I'm going to die if you push me hard, just stop treating me like I'm a porcelain doll." So I just push myself to keep up with the guys I just modify a lot of the conditioning that they do. So the part you've all been waiting for I'VE GRADUATED!!!!!!!!!!! My MRI came back clear today and so I've graduated to getting an MRI every four months. So I'm totally stoked. I don't what I'm going to do to celebrate. If I had champagne I'd pop the cork but I don't and I don't have the money to buy a bottle. So all of that to tell you that I don't get another MRI for four months. Oh side story, I took ground beef from my freezer day before yesterday to make shepherds pie yesterday but when I went to get it out of the fridge it had a hole in the bag and blood had dripped from the bag and had splashed down on about 85% of my food that now had to be thrown away! So I had basically by our standards nothing to eat. On the left side of the fridge, the splatter free zone, I had my yogurt, butter, milk, little potatoes and I think thats about it. So I decided I'd admit defeat and I'd use it as an excuse to soothe my yearly crave of the most unhealthy hamburger (if you can even call it that) the BIG MAC. I ate every last piece of it. So my plan was after my appointment today I was going to grocery shop...well my body had it's own agenda, I'm still having 'running' issues so I no sooner got on the Loblaws street when I said to my Vancouver dad that he should just take me home because I wasn't feeling very confident that i could hold on to get thru a grocery shop. So home I came with still no food. I figured I'd treat myself to pizza but I let the phone ring 3 or 4 times realized what a waste of money that was and hung up I had my trusty oatmeal instead. So that's it. I'm going to study a bit more now and find something else to eat and call it a day. Forget about my cancer it's time now to focus on something of real importance, my school so please pray, cheer, send me little encouraging texts, emails, little notes, anything you'd like, God and I will take anything you have. Thanks (insert heart here) you have all been so supportive over the years. Bless you all. The song is a really good one it's very mmmmmmmmmmmmm alive. (i'm hoping it helps me move with my footwork in boxing)click on the title

And God answers another prayer

So where would you like me to start other than stating the same repetitive garble about how this blog will only allow me to type in HTML mode and gives me a hard time every time I try to link an awesome song for you all to listen to. I think something else is going on. I think there's other powers at work here trying to deter me from getting Gods awesomeness out there. I am aware that 'awsomeness' is not a real word but it fits and my best friend and 'little sis' Elisa and I have a list called Mel's made up words because sometimes words come out of my mouth and they're actually not real words but they make sense in the sentence I use them in most of the time we have to stop and think if it's an actual word or not (laugh) I think I do it a lot more but most people don't have the heart to tell me, I wish they did because compiling the list is actually quite entertertaining for me to go back and look at so if I use a Mel's made up word please tell me. So, I don't know whether to start with the great news or make you wait....yup you'll have to read the blog before I tell you OR you can skip the .................................................................................................................................. represents the analogy I thought would be to controversial so I decided against it but wanted you to know that there was something else intended to be there I dont know why I wanted you to know i just did. Anyway I'm totally getting sidetracked, I'm listening to music and typing at the same time. Multi-tasking with brain cancer, clearly not a good idea. I started boxing 2 weeks today. Awesome, body is actually holding up pretty good considering how long it's been since it's done anything that requires any type of energy. Today my legs are quite sore from all the lunges with weights I did on Tuesday. A good sore, but sore none the less. I go with my friend Kim from Elite so we encourage eachother. It's very hard for me because before I was a big fish in a small pond now i'm starting all over and it's very humbling, noone wants to partner with the girl who doesn't know what she's doing or has physical limitations and is so out of shape. It's a shot to the pride which is good don't get me wrong I have no doubt we all need to be taken down a few notches through out our lives but when it's you getting taken down it's hard. Kim has been very encouraging and Elisa did warn me that everything I learned previously was not the same as boxing but I didn't actually believe her, well I was so wrong. That ego got slammed down pretty quick. Again sidetracked but important things to learn from me, things that God is teaching me...humility ugghhhhhh hard lesson and no doubt it's only the beginning. My school has been delayed. I'm registered and ready to rock'n'roll but the Abnormal Psychology course that I am registered for is being revised so it's not starting now until the end of May or mid June. I figure they know I'm taking it so they want to make sure that it's challenging enough because they know that I have a very special brain, it's not common and doesn't work like others. (giggling to self) I went on a women's retreat with my church the first weekend in May. Can I just say 2 words? Well I'm going to anyway. REST & AWESOME God spoke to me and showed me so much, I met new people and deepened relationships with others. I giggled all weekend with a friend and just couldn't stop, her laughter is contagious. I can now rest in knowing that not everyone is going to like me and that's ok. I have been a huge people pleaser and peace keeper my entire life so to come to this realisation is a huge revalation and only through the eyes of God was I able to see that. I learned that I can be content outside of my circumstances. I had a vision of someone surrounded by pure chaos there was all these different 'things'(typewriters, papers, computers,all technological gizmos) flying around them and if you can imagine the old school comics that said things like ZAP BING BOP ZING all of those words and lightening bolts were flying in and out and then this person got up and stepped on foot at a time outside of this chaotic thing and just stood there in complete silence looking at this chaotic mess. In complete contentment. Peace. Ok, recap, Boxing, school, retreat,...Alex is still loving her job so keep praying for her please and thank you. So I guess all that's left is the end of the blog which is the best part and you've all been waiting for. My weight is approximately 117 lbs. My hair is starting to grow back and I have a little pixey cut (sp). My liver enzymes were just checked and it turns out they are the lowest they've been since April 2013. Which is a massive answer to prayer. It is actually a miracle. So God gets a massive shout out for that one!!! So I think that's about it, well that's an awful lot for one blog, I have an MRI on the 21st and the results on the 28th of this month and nothing exciting coming up, just chill for now and get my body in shape and get my mind ready to rock out the Ab. Psyc. BRING IT ON!!! Please click on the title for the song. And please close your eyes and be ready to chill, grab your favourite God something, something that comforts you and just chill. I know I say that about songs but this time I'm totally serious, so please do it. It's a song that we heard at the retreat. Bless you all. Me:)